I never loved you
I’m sorry I said otherwise
I’m sorry I entangled myself
In this bed of lies
I fell in love with your idea
With your kindness and fair gaze
What I didn’t love was how you didn’t respond
For days and days and days
When I dream of you, you were always warm
But in reality you’re very cold
You’re eyes looked so young in the mirror
But now you seem so old
Your ghost still lingers
In every word that I write
I fell in love with my muse
But my gut still twists at the sight
At night I shamed myself for loving you
I never knew why
But after I lost count
Of the times you made me cry
I forgot about your virtues
There wasn’t many to name
Tried to count your vices
That gave me a lot of pain
Every time you approach me
I want to shrink far away
Yet my heart starts to stutter
And spikes when you say, “hey”
When you say my name I flinch
The word seems like slander when you speak
I also hate how insecure I feel
How you make me become so weak
I never loved you
I hope you feel the same
So we can stop this torture
And put an end to our mind game
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I wrote this poem a while ago and had the audacity to send it to the subject. It’s rather comical how dense people can be sometimes when it’s about them. This was a darker part of my short existence, and still tastes bitterly. However, doesn’t such strong emotion make for such good poetry?
4 replies on “I Never Loved You”
An excellent poem, though I am curious about the response it received
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Sweetly from my darling readers, and bitterly from the subject. A good contrast, no?
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A good contrast perhaps, but not necessarily a fair trade since your readers are anonymous to you and the subject was not.
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Very astute, my anonymous friend. However, now, they may as well just be as beautifully unknown as the rest of you.
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